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LIFE IS SAD
Friday, September 23, 2005 I have so much to say, but I can't. How much I want to express myself, to let you know what I feel.... But I know that's impossible because some things will never come back, and no matter what I do, nothing's going to change. Its just too late. I want to get out, I want to escape from this dimension where it hurts so much like a stab in the back. Perhaps one day, we might meet again like we did before, for the third time? Mark posted at 4:42 AM.
Tuesday, September 20, 2005 The phrase 'I've never regretted anything in life' is a lie. Everyone has regrets, but they just treat it as a simple mistake. If you had the chance to go back in time, what difference would it make? I stay awake almost every night thinking about the Past, Present and the Future. In the end it would always be the same conclusion, that everyone will die, and a new generation would take over. Its just another endless cycle which has no significant meaning, and it feels like I'm trapped in a dimension which reloads itself over and over again. An eagle circles the sky, soaring high up, looking down at the world. It can never remember about life's regrets, memories or about the Future. It can't think about anything complex, or thinks back into the Past. I wished I was an eagle, so I won't have to think about this all the time. Mark posted at 3:31 AM.
Tuesday, September 13, 2005  If my Life was the sea, I'd be washed up on the shore.... Mark posted at 2:52 AM.
Saturday, September 10, 2005 Sitting at the computer at 5.30am in the morning, where everything is dark and serene. What do I really want in Life? Problems that can't be solved, decisions to make, the worst part of it all is where will all this go? How I could be so carefree like others, without any problems or burdens.... Why can't I be like everyone else? Why am I even here in this country where society is a rat race? High expectations and qualifications required to survive in the Future, and its just a never ending marathon where if you give up, you lose, but you won't know where it ends if you stayed on. It doesn't matter if you stayed on or not, because you don't know what to do if you stayed. So much to think, so much to plan, but you still don't have a conclusion because you won't know how things will turn out to be. If I died, I hope the whole world dies with me. Unfair as it sounds to you, its just as unfair to me as well. What are your goals in Life? To be rich? To live Life in luxury? Many people only think blindly without giving much thought into how much effort you have to give to something which may not even turn out as you thought it would be. The world has always been unfair, and I just hope that it'll be destroyed. Mark posted at 5:17 AM.
Thursday, September 08, 2005 I had a dream about you again. It seemed so real, the feeling of you being there kills me. Why must it end this way? Sometimes the fanatsy world is better than reality. There are no limits, no boundries, and everything you want would come true. Just like being in the Matrix, the Blue or the Red pill. To live in a virtual world or face the truth of reality.... Is it worth deceiving myself? I miss you. Mark posted at 2:45 PM.
Sunday, September 04, 2005 The feeling of taking a break for 2 months is so great, but how long do you think it'll last? For sooner or later it will be back to the same routine again, and everything repeats itself for another sememster. Time flies so fast and it doesn't wait for anyone. How much time do we have left before we face the industry? Slogging out at office desks waiting for the weekend to come, which passes by so quickly and another week arrives and the same routine starts all over again. What's worse is that there are no 2 month breaks, no more spare time, no excuses for lateness, no nothing. Which makes me wonder, is that what Life is all about? Studying for 12 years or so just to slog in a office cubicle for the rest of my life? Mark posted at 5:52 PM.
Thursday, September 01, 2005 I tried so hard. To leave you, to make you non-existant, to kill you, but you're a blood clot in my head, and I can't get rid of you... Mark posted at 10:39 PM.
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Profile Name: Mark Leong About the Blog Life is nothing but a Sad Story. Just like reading a book, the last chapter would eventually come. Quote "I am reality. You are the dream." Links
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